“Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.” Mark 11:23
During the past couple of days, I have gone through what I believe is my nadir. Yep, I had to look it up…Nadir is a term that basically means the bottom point of a cycle. In the case of chemo patients, nadir refers to the period after a chemo treatment where most of the white blood cells are destroyed. This represents the greatest opportunity for infection.
It seems that I may be on the upside of an emotional nadir as well. I have been experiencing some sadness related to the situation as well as some anxiety. The good news is I believe I am on the uphill side of both nadirs.
The thing that hit me is that the scripture doesn’t tell us that we will not experience fear or sadness. In fact, it states quite the opposite. However, we are to keep our eyes on Him and know that He holds us in His hands. It isn’t always easy! I feel at times my mind is one of my biggest enemies … My imagination can run wild very easily. However, I am continuing to make a conscious effort to remain positive, maintain my focus on God’s grace, and avoid unhealthy negativity. This is me speaking to the mountain that is cancer! Here’s your eviction notice!