He who lives in the safe place of the Most High will be in the shadow of the All-powerful. 2 I will say to the Lord, “You are my safe and strong place, my God, in Whom I trust.” 3 For it is He Who takes you away from the trap, and from the killing sickness. 4 He will cover you with His wings. And under His wings you will be safe. He is faithful like a safe-covering and a strong wall.Psalm 91 (NLV)
It has been quite some time since I have updated my blog. I honestly have no legitimate excuse other than laziness. I know they say that chemo causes fatigue and yes, I have definitely experienced some serious fatigue, that doesn’t excuse my negligence in keeping my blog updated. I can only suggest that I will try better to keep the blog updated on a more timely basis.
As far as recent events, I had an awesome visit from some friends from Pampa TX. Dean has been one of my best friends since I moved to the Pampa area after high school. His folks have been like a second set of parents to me as well. When he emailed to tell me they would be in the OKC area and wondered if I was up to them driving up for a visit, I was very excited. We had a great visit and caught up in old times. It was absolutely fantastic. I can’t believe the miles they traveled just to spend a couple of hours with me. I am so blessed!
In the realm of progress updates, I had the monthly visit with the oncologist / hematologist on Monday. Everything appeared to be going well still. He scheduled a PET scan for Thursday. This will help us know how much of the cancer has been eliminated and how much remains. This is oddly a little frightening for me as it helps validate the efficacy of all the chemo I’ve been having. One thing I learned during the most recent chemo infusion is that There is a lifetime maximum of some of the chemo drug that a person can have because of the damage to the heart. They confirmed that as far as chemo goes, I’m on some of the most potent stuff (besides EPOCH).
My biggest challenge continues to be my mind. Especially when you consider that much of the medicine lists paranoia, anxiety, death, plague, and pestilence as potential side effects. I continue to have to force myself to focus on my faith and the facts of the situation. Specifically, the scriptures in the 91 Psalm explains that God will protect those who love him and abide in him. Additionally, even before chemo started, the doctor explained the level of pain would be an accurate barometer of progress. To that point, where I was experiencing excruciating pain in all that I would do, I rarely have to take a pain pill. I find this to be an encouragement mark of significant progress.
I will close for now so I can get a bite to eat … I won’t be able to eat or drink anything after midnight in preparation for the PET scan. We will definitely be dining at a fine establishment in OKC after the PET scan is completed tomorrow :). Gotta celebrate the successes along the way!